How much do the words we use to describe something matter? How do you feel when someone refers to your deeply held spiritual beliefs as “religion faith?” What about when someone calls it a delusion, a fantasy, or a cult? Spiritual beliefs are a significant part of many people’s lives, and when others portray those beliefs… Read More Words Matter (OCD)
Most people don’t understand the extreme anguish we feel as we try to resist the impulse to make another doctor appointment. We know we have OCD and illness anxiety and so we try to ignore those false signals from our malfunctioning brain, but doing so then makes us feel like we are essentially causing our own deaths because there is a chance that this time it is a serious disease that needs a doctor’s attention before it progresses too far and kills us.… Read More Living with Illness Anxiety OCD
When I was still a college student, there were multiple occasions when I looked down a stairwell or over a balcony railing, and imagined throwing myself off and ending the unbearable suffering that PTSD, OCD, and depression were strangling me with. Why have I survived the depression and the suicidal thoughts and urges that have plagued me for over a decade, but this woman did not survive?… Read More Processing a Public Suicide
I have a friend who has depression and anxiety. Despite these diseases making it extremely difficult for her to climb out of bed every day and go to work at a demanding job, she has done just that for years. She is amazing. Just as amazing as a blind man (like Eric Weihenmayer) or a double… Read More Stigma vs. Awe in Mental Illness
Both of these women blessed my life and the lives of countless others because they had such good character.
It wasn’t a character issue. It was an illness issue. They did need attention—like a person with a broken bone needs attention, like a person who just got in a car accident needs attention, like a person with pneumonia needs attention.… Read More Suicide is Not About Character
When you’re lonely, its like you don’t even exist on this earth with everyone else, its like being a ghost. I guess thats why solitary confinement is the worst punishment in prisons, its the most painful place a person can be in.
If you are feeling lonely, don’t beat yourself up about it. Human interaction is a normal human need. If anxiety is keeping you from getting the amount of human interaction that is good for you, then you are normal for feeling lonely. … Read More Anxiety and Loneliness
The OCD wants me to live in a fire-proof, earthquake-proof, intruder-proof room (with a treadmill so I don’t die of inactivity) and never leave.
But even if that would be a safe life, it would be an empty, unhappy, meaningless life.
I have to be willing to risk my life in order to have a happy and meaningful life. I have to fight to do what feels important and meaningful to me.… Read More Anxiety and Traveling